Friday, August 24, 2012

Freddie Hawkins


Freddie Hawkins gave me my first job. Actually, that’s not true. My first job was working in my parents’ restaurant. But they’re family so they had to give me a job. Or maybe I had to work for them. Either way, one night when I was 17, I was told to be home because we were hosting a night for the camp my little brother attended. Apparently the owners of Vista Camps traveled around in the off-season hosting camp video nights to attract new campers and counselors. The camp I had gone to when I was younger had closed. Maybe because they didn’t do these traveling camp video nights? Anyway, when my mom introduced me to Freddie, his second sentence was about me coming to work for them that summer. From what I learned about Freddie in the following years, I now realize his giving me a job was probably some conspiracy between him and my mom. Another thing I learned about Freddie is that he considered everyone who walked into Vista Camps a family member. So really, my work with Vista turned out to be not a job at all, but time spent with a whole new family.

My first summer, I was hired as the snack girl and was just a year older than some of the campers. I also met my best friend, Dana. Seven summers later I was the Program Director for Sierra Vista. But despite my responsibilities, Freddie continued to call Dana and I into his office whenever there was evidence of camp hijinks. I’ll admit now that we were usually guilty.

Through all the practical jokes and bending of camp rules, in seven summers I met some of the most unique people (including a new side of my own brother that he reserved for camp). Something about driving through the gates of Vista allowed people to shed the insecurities…kids came out of their shells, counselors were the model of silliness, it was a place to truly be your comfortable self. That feeling was created by Freddie. Every summer there are articles in prominent publications about the value of the summer camp experience. It fosters independence, builds character, hones values while teaching new skills. Yada yada yada. The truth is, you spend the summer singing at the top of your lungs in the dining hall, competing in ruthless tribal games, having shaving cream fights, wrestling a greased watermelon in the lake, enduring strange initiation rituals, all in 100 degree Texas sun. The seriousness with which Freddie created the fun was what made it perfect.

Amidst all the fun, when I got hit in the head with the waterskiing rope handle and had to get a few stitches, it was Freddie who washed the blood out of my hair and drove me to the doctor in town. When I encountered challenges as the program director, it was Freddie who mentored me through my first leadership role. He was the camp dad to so many and I am blessed to be among them.

Freddie Hawkins died just a few days before camp ended this summer. There is a celebration of his life at Vista tomorrow. I'm sad to be so far away, to not be able to say goodbye in person among camp friends. But a few mornings ago in a walk through Prospect Park with my three-month-old son, I heard cicadas. The noise brought a flood of camp memories that include that same summer hum of cicadas. Even before I was pregnant, I knew I wanted to send my kids to Vista. TJ will go there someday and while I’m sad he will never meet Freddie, I’m grateful that such a magical place exists for him and future family generations. Thank you, Freddie. Goodbye.



Thursday, July 19, 2012

Lamaze Class Reunion

Our lamaze class had a reunion. Missy, the instructor, is the spitting image of Jane Lynch and has a football coach's approach to lamaze. During class she would get us to practice our breathing and then start yelling "A CONTRACTION IS 90 SECONDS LONG. YOU CAN DO ANYTHING FOR 90 SECONDS!!!" "SQUAT! DO IT! GET THOSE KNEES UP! PARTNERS, MAMA NEEDS HELP WITH HER KNEES SO SHE CAN PUUUUUUUSSSSHHHHH!!!"

Despite the yelling, the whole class came back for the reunion. We last saw each other back in April when we were seven very pregnant ladies and seven supportive partners. And now there are seven more people in the world. Seven new little souls. When I walked in the door with TJ, Missy yelled "YOU DID IT!!!" so loudly it startled TJ awake. He and all the other little ones ate, pooped and cried while we exhausted parents shared our birth stories. The prize for the most dramatic delivery went to the couple who had an intern try nine times to insert the epidural causing the doula to faint and have to be taken to the emergency room.

The most amazing thing was to see how the little ones reflected their parents personalities and demeanor. The high strung couple's baby cried a lot, the laid back lesbian couple had the most laid back little dude, the daughter of a librarian and a teacher was quiet, alert and observing everything. Nature or nurture? If TJ reflects us already, I'm too close to see it. Oh wait...he just spent fifteen minutes going cross-eyed from staring at his own hand. Yep, he's definitely part of this family.

Lamaze class reunion:

Here's a recent photo of TJ caught in a non cross-eyed moment:






Sunday, July 1, 2012

Commercial FAIL

Have you seen this commercial for International Delight?
International Delight Coffeehouse

Go ahead. Watch it. I'll wait.


Welcome back.

I've never used International Delight and I'm not usually one to rant. This commercial, however, drives me insane because it assumes that we viewers are stupid. And they have apparently paid for it to air constantly on my television so I'll go ahead and badtalk their commercial.

They suggest we should buy their iced coffee to drink at home because it's too difficult to venture out into crazy unpredictable public spaces where there might be doors that attack us. Wild coffeehouses with doors that are usually found only in grocery stores. These doors also seem programmed to close on people. And if we were to come in contact with these doors out there in the lunatic coffeehouse world, we would be just like the people in the commercial who seem unaware that it takes a modicum common sense to enter and exit a building. So, yes, by all means America, believe them when they tell you that attempting to leave your house is treacherous. Even the simple idea to pick up morning coffee would be bonkers. Stay home. Buy their highly processed drink.

Although...wait a second. Wouldn't you have to go to a grocery store to buy International Delight? Hmmmm...I wonder what kind of doors you will have to navigate there? Godspeed everyone. May the force be with you in the war against mechanized entryways. Here's hoping we all survive to buy another cup 'o joe.

If you have time to kill:
10 Very Funny Commercials


People who haven't done commercials, don't appreciate how hard it is. 
- Justin Long







Monday, June 18, 2012

Do you have your club card?


INT.  DUANE READE IN HELLS KITCHEN, MANHATTAN - DAY

The young, bright eyed quirky GIRL steps up to the cash register and hands the CASHIER a box of headshot envelopes and mailing labels.

CASHIER
Do you have your club card?

GIRL
What’s a club card?

CASHIER
A Duane Reade club card.

GIRL
I don’t know what that is. I just moved here. To New York City.

The cashier gives the girl a blank stare.

GIRL (CONT’D)
I’m going to be an actress.

More blank staring.

GIRL (CONT’D)
Well...can I get these things without a club card?

CASHIER
That’s $14.87.

Ok. I didn’t really tell the cashier that I was going to be an actress. I did, however, figure that I would be frequenting this store they call Duane Reade. But why would the guy not ask me if I wanted a card? Did Duane Reade corporate headquarters really pass down the rule that all cashiers ask if customers have a club card without suggesting that there could be a follow up question if the customer said "no?" I like to support good marketing and customer service so I vowed then and there that if any employee ever actually offered me a card instead of just asking if I already had one, I would certainly take Duane Reade up on benefitting from their club card program. If they couldn't take the extra step to tell me how to get one, why should I? I don't need your stinking club card!

Cut to...eight years later...


INT.  DUANE READE IN DITMAS PARK, BROOKLYN - DAY

The frazzled new MOTHER juggles pushing a stroller up to the cash register while handing a box of newborn diapers and a pint of Haagen Dazs to the CASHIER.

CASHIER
You have your club card?

MOTHER
No.

CASHIER
You want one?

MOTHER
What?

The mother looks up. Stunned. The cashier reaches for a club card brochure.

CASHIER
It’s a rewards program. You can fill this out to get one.

MOTHER
I know what it is. I’ve been waiting eight years to be offered a club card!

The cashier gives the mother a blank stare. 

MOTHER (CONT’D)
This is a really big moment--

The BABY in the stroller starts crying. The mother hesitates.

MOTHER (CONT’D)
(motioning to stroller)
I have to get him home...I guess Duane Reade missed the window.

More blank staring...but then...
CASHIER
Take it with you. Bring it back anytime.

The cashier gave the mother the club card discount anyway. She took the application and thanked him as she pushes her crying baby out of the store.


Why did it take EIGHT YEARS for me to cross paths with a nice Duane Reade cashier? Is it me? Do I finally look worthy? Did Duane Reade corporate headquarters train their cashiers to offer cards only to those who look frazzled and desperate? Was it the spit-up on my shirt that sealed the deal? Or the way I didn't brush my hair? Well, I'll take the sympathy points my crying baby got me and I promise to cherish my sacred club card.



"It is not the employer who pays the wages. Employers only handle the money. It is the customer who pays the wages."
-Henry Ford


Friday, June 15, 2012

Update

Back in February, I wrote a post about a soup kitchen that needed some help with a website. My friend Christine generously volunteered her time. The end result is this: www.thetemplepaths.org 

Christine, you are awesome! May it empower Sondra and allow her to continue to feed so many. 

Sunday, May 27, 2012

11 Days


Yesterday was my son’s due date, but he arrived 11 days early. I’ll spare you the labor and delivery drama. Mostly because the last 11 days have made me feel that going through absolutely anything for my little guy would be worth it. Yesterday, on the day he was supposed to arrive, his umbilical cord stump fell off. The last vestige of me that attached us for so many months. He is now his own whole person. He seems to still need me seeing as how he can’t quite focus his eyes on anything yet and has no control over his arms and legs. But my little fetus is definitely on the way to becoming a man. I actually think he’s an old soul. Something in his calm demeanor and the way he furrows his brow when he’s trying to look at something. A T-Bone Walker song came on Pandora and my son’s otherwise herky-jerky limbs started moving to the blues. Like he could relate to how rough it is out there. He gave me a look that said: “Mom, this guy knows some things. You can’t even attach me to your boob on the first try.”

We’re taking it one step at a time. In 11 days we’ve had many firsts. First bath. First car ride. First walk to the park. First trip to the doctor. It did bother me to learn that the first shot he’ll get from the pediatrician is for Hepatitis B. Um, that’s an STD. An STD he would get from having sex. My son isn’t having sex. Ever. Not even when some futuristic 2030 slut tries to seduce him. He may not be attached to me anymore, but his face is just too sweet to let me think about him having sex yet. His face is so perfect and smells so good that I give it kisses all the time. I figure at some point his body will start to catch up with his old soul and he’ll push away my kisses. So until then, I’ll give him more than enough pecks on his chubby cheeks so that I know he has a force field of mom kisses stored up in there somewhere protecting him most when he thinks he doesn’t need them. Especially when that drunk floozy tries to give my sweet baby hepatitis B at some high school party.

I’ll be here. Worrying. And remembering these first days. The first time he looked at me while we were nursing. The first time he held my finger. The first time he farted.

Who wouldn’t love this sweet face:

This is his favorite position:

“Mothers are all slightly insane.” 
 J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye

Sunday, May 6, 2012

Trial By Fire


I haven’t blogged in over a month. Mostly this is because the past month has been a tad overwhelming. The ninth month of pregnancy has been…well…how do I put this? I’ve reached the pregnancy breeds contempt portion of the program. Don’t get me wrong, there is glowing and excitement. There are also lists and lists of nesting activities that need to be done before the baby comes and have filled all time not dedicated to eating and sleeping. Buuuut you didn’t tune in to hear about my aches and pains, so I’ll move on….

I’m about to turn over my job to two people who will replace me when the baby comes. My job is sort of hard to describe. It's part personal assistant, part class programmer, part actor advocate, part marketer, part human copy machine. This jack of all trades position has taught me to be a sponge to everything I get to be a part of and has led to opportunities to write, direct, coach. I feel very lucky. But how do you train a replacement to take over such a vague position when most of it really just involves trying to read the mind of a quirky old Jew. His words. Not mine. A small sample of the words I would use are: hilarious, bellowing, dapper, generous, I could go on and on.

This exact job didn’t exist before me. The awesome Erica did a lot of what I do, but it sort of grew organically out of circumstance and proximity. Suddenly three years later I find myself knowing a lot but having trouble telling someone how to do it. It’s not rocket science. If I can do it, the two very capable ladies that are taking over can do it. It’s just that no day is the same and I don’t know how to help them start.

It sort of reminds me of being a camp counselor where my job was to take care of every aspect of the kiddos…sure, the class I taught was water skiing, but the job also included getting them to drink plenty of water throughout the day, remind them to write letters to their mothers and kill all the scorpions that got into the cabin. Or when I was a Peace Corps Volunteer…I taught a few classes per week, but also had to make friends in the village, drink a lot of beer and dress up to visit the chief. What odd jobs I’ve had.

The few times I’ve found myself behind a desk, I end up wanting to slit my throat out of boredom. The routine is in no way comforting to me. Acting fascinates me because no job is exactly the same. In fact getting to immerse myself in what is unique to each character is what I love about it. Even doing the same scene twice, it is never exactly the same.

Good to know I’m pursuing something that will be a perfect fit if I can make a post-baby career happen. In the meantime, I should at least tell the replacements how the bossman takes his coffee. 


"No training can completely prepare you for the trial by fire you get in the ring."
Sugar Ray Leonard